Sorry, if you're reading this... I can only type in English...
Dear Huiting, I read your post alrdy. Its not that we don't understand or not that I can't understand. I TRULY understand what you mean, how you feel, how much hurt you have. Now, your mindset is mostly negative and not positive. Please change your mindset. Only if you change your thinking, i believe you can become better. The more you think, the more action you think its negative. Life is wonderful, and not dull. Life is dull, as god wants us to get more experience in life. I know you feel depressed at the moment with family problems and relationship. But think again, if you are not brave or strong now, will your family problems be solved? Will everything be back again? And, you have to think, yes it will. It will become better no matter what happens. A family is a family. You think too much of the negative side because you're now in deepest hurt. But, believe me, every thing will turn out correctly as it is. After everything, it will be smooth... Okay? For relationship, because you can't let go. I know. I know you can't let it go, and just do what you think is right. Believe in your first instinct, kays dear?! I know you miss him, or some what lah. but you have to let go means let go! If there is no possibilty anymore, why stand there waiting for him to turn back when he don't want to turn back?! Uh?! No use lah, trust me can! Trust me one more time. Seriously, don't watch too much drama show... Cry out all you want, in a corner or what, but please don't treat yourself damn bad can or emo?! Me, as a friend of yours, feel very sad for you. dear... don't sad, i want you happy can?! I want the moment where we laugh laugh laugh and not cry cry cry, sad sad sad.
I'm begging you can?!
Now, you must be confident, be happy. Not despair.
I want you to smile again laogongggg. :)
Why make yourself miserable, when you're not in fault?!
Relationship are not trustworthy at the moment. There may not be better guys outside, but
you still have me right?! Those jerks or asshole, just let them be lah. you can't change them. You only have the power to change yourself kkkkkkkkkkkkkk?!
Trust me one more time, :B
Let time prove everything, heal everything..
Loves,
Elaine.
Elaine loves you kays! (L)!
HUGS*
Your laopo here lah. :)